And sometimes she cries, when the hurt becomes to much

I don't know what im posting for. I have to phone people and make arrangements for people to sleep over. No party out here this weekend, just a few girlie-friends over, 'cause everyone sucks, I think that I'll just go out to lower nic friday and saturday or sumn. It'd be sooo much easier.

-Samantha

When I Can Write To You And Say..

I had fun tonight. I went out to lower nic, and just hung out with John. We chilled with Lance for a little bit, and then T.J hung out with us, or I hung out with them. Ya im the tag-along. Oh well.

It was fun, we were on the swings, and T.J and John were doing flips, backflips...whatever, lol. And T.J caught his shorts on the swing and ripped them, shit it was so funny.

John lent me his sweater. Im still wearin it, 'cause its freaking cold in the house. My dads harsh pissed off at me, for not going to the store, because hes' an ass and i didn't know that it was 5:30ish. Like wholey fuck. Oh well. I had fun and I think that my dad is more pissed that its been four days, and im happy. Because my dad gets pissy when I'm, happier then "normal".
Its like he wants me to be depressed and sad and pitiful all the time, not happy. Oh well. Everyone's like "thats what parents do." But whatever, parents are gay. The fuckers.

Oh well, Im out, i guess. I have english to do, and if i don't do it, my dad will be pissy, because hes a bitch. Oh well.

-Samantha.

I am tired of waiting.. Tired of waiting!

I'm happy, Im probably goign to Johns after school today, and it'll be fun. I think he said something about going to lances and "exploring the tree house." Lol.

I don't know, hes' just a fun kid and i can't wait to spend some time with him. It'll be awesome.

We talked on the phone again for 3 hours, or close to, my mum is getting so mad, because last night and the night before i was on the phone from like 8:00 ish to like 11:30 ish. I dunno.

I want to go dirt biking. maybe John'll take me. If i feel like going after school. I have to phone my mum at lunch and be like "pleaseeeeeeeee" again.

Just watch her say no.

I invited Christine to be a tag member in my blog, like a blog team thing, so we can both post on here and hers, I think thats how it works anyways. ha.

I don't know, Im happy and going to make sure nothing mean is written in here....... -cowers and hides.-

.....^......

on the phone again, on the phone again!! ^.^ John ^.^ <3 <3

She Put Him Out, Like The Burning End Of A Midnight Cigarette

I was supposed to be in town, not here on the computer writing in my blog.

I have no life anyways so what does it matter? Really?

To finish off last night, me and John talked on the phone for like two and a half, three hours. Hes so sweet and romantic. We were sitting there talking and it was sooo romantic.
John: "You know what?"
Me: "What?"
John: "We should find someone with a trampoline this weekend."
Me: "Oh yeah?"
John: "Yeah and then sit there with a couple blankets just watching the stars and talking all night."




Its was so romantic, and we just totally click. God, he makes me so happy.
Hes probably coming over this weekend when i have a couple friends over.
It'll be invite only and heres a little list of people (Sarah can't come, she'll be heading to mexico!):

Britteny
John
Christine
Kristal
Damon
Steff
Chelsea - Both of them
Steff boyfriend - maybe
Jer
T.J
Zhan
Wesley
Tina and them - **MAYBE**


I don't know, it'll be wicked though, I'll see if my dad will get me and john damon and britteny a texas mickey. We all might have to chip in some money, but that'd be wicked. Mwahahaha.
And then me and John can sit outside in my yard all night and just watch the stars & talk, and be all cuddly and sweet. Aww, I <3>-Samantha

(P.S:::


WARNING: MOTHER OFF ANTI-DEPRESSANTS )

A million and one reasons, to fly so high & away, a million and two to stay right here.

I couldn't tell you why I think John is special, I just think he is. I don't know, maybe its just because hes' knew and interesting. Maybe its just because I'm so tied up in feeling good.

Or as Christine says "The Boyfriend Buzz"

But thats ok, Im happy and Johns happy, and thats all that matters. Right? Ahhh, he was like today. "So when you comin' out next?" and I don't know, i did one of those stupid grins and sarah smiled at me, and Britteny's going to be pshyced.

But Im going to go, I have people to call, places to go, and people -coughjohncough- to see. Hehehehehehehee.

-Samantha.

(P.S - Things seem so good. )

Its like; Ok, This is what you two are doing now.

All I have to say is I love my friends.

Well, we met up with John and T.J.... (John being the one I like) And Damon kept dropping hints that I liked John, and T.J kept like poking fun at John and stuff. And then all of a sudden, T.J just comes right out and asks
"John, would you go out with Sam?" John nodded and was like
"Yeah I'd go out with her." Then damon had to speak up.
"Hey Sam, Would you go out with John?" and i was like:
"Yeah, I'd go out with him."
The all of a sudden, Kristal, T.J and Damon are all like "Ok, well you two are going out now. Ok? Good."

It was cute and funny. and Yeah, Im being a bit of a cradle robber, seeing how John is two years younger then me..... >.<;

Then we were half way to the store and John puts his arm around my waist and walks with me. It was so adorable. Hes a whole head taller then me, and I'm like 5'7-ish. But ahh, John rocks.

Sarah got a little mad at me last night for it, but 'eh, me and her got over it tonight and thats all that matters, shes a good/best friend and little tiffs are ok, its understandable. I didn't mind, everythings better now.

Me and John are going out now though. -Grin-

Im just chillen and being happy. even though hes' still in the middle school.... But thats ok 'eh. Hes still awesome.

-Samantha